I wanted to thank you for showing me the Ultimate Spaceship site. I am finding it to be extremely informative (I didn’t even know about codex Alimentarius) without trying to push a religious or political agenda.

I have also found that I agree with your views and points that have been written. These are issues that I used to talk about and read about and try to educate myself on. I found though that trying to talk to people about them usually fell on deaf ears or someone coming back at me with a greener than thou argument.

I also found that the more I thought about these things the more helpless and scared I felt. I  started living in the denial that Le Monde talks about in his article ( yes I read the entire thing) I stopped searching and talking about these issues of humanity. I couldn’t think about how insidious and pervasive our government had become. I didn’t want to think that the President of the United States did not have our best interest in mind. I didn’t want to think about how many living beings were suffering so I can life my comfortable life. I thought “how can I do anything about it when I cant even get my own family consisting of two other people to stop eating meat?” It was just overwhelming and upsetting. This is what I was trying to tell you yesterday but I was too hopped up on my double latte that I hadn’t had in months to articulate my thoughts at the moment.

So for the last several years I have been in the fear and consume cycle, spending most of my time thinking about all the crap that I didn’t really need that I was going to buy with that paycheck. It would make me feel better or look better (can’t forget about that trillion dollar “beauty” industry) and ease the fears. Its also my duty as an American to buy things or the economy will collapse, right?

Over the last few months there have been events that have happened that have really made me look at myself and think “look what you have become” I have so much more to offer than what I’m going to cook for dinner, or which curtains go with my bedspread, or chomping at the bit for the new season of Dexter to start. I find myself spending so much time thinking about the most trivial shit it amazes me.

I am looking forward to reading more of the Ultimate Spaceship site, to further educating myself on these issues and to contributing where I can.